In the hustle and bustle of the past few days, I haven't taken much time to think about how I feel, but lately I've been in sort of a scrambled state. This morning I felt myself wishing D would somehow let me know that everything is going ok... you know, let me know if I'm doing a good job and if he's satisfied and happy with the way I am... his wife. He never gave me a reason to doubt his satisfaction or happiness, but today I just needed something extra. You know those days?
But how can you express that to the one closest to you? You really can't ask, "Hey baby, why don't you leave me a little note on the table today telling me you love me," and to ask "hey, am I doing a good job?" is a silly way to fish for whatever you're needing, right? That's what I was thinking, so I said nothing, except for asking him to help me make a daily schedule since I've been so scrambled lately. I had even dismissed this desire for something extra and gone on happily through the rest of the day. That is, until I just checked my e-mail. There at the top of my inbox was an e-mail from D's e-mail address, the Subject Line reading, "25 Things I Love About My Wife." My pulse quickened as I clicked the message open and began to read. How did I end up in a heap of tears? I'm still not sure, but these 25 simple things touched me so tenderly. My eyes welled up until I could no longer see the computer screen, even though I was only about half way through.
Marriage will not make a person happy. I am learning that. It takes two content people to have a happy marriage. When I am content with what the Lord has given and I am faithful in the small things, my husband has his chance to sweep me off my feet. I am so thankful for these simple sweet days.