One thing Pop said on the way home stuck with me though. He mentioned that we never really had a focus on the Lord the whole week. It is hard to remain focused when your schedule is completely revised (or doesn't even exist), and 5 different family lives are put together. I spent most of the week digressing into a pattern of selfishness, and when David and I had a long talk about it, he called us both right out into the light, confessing that he had been falling into the same pattern. We spoke to the Lord together, confessing our lack, and asking Him to be our center again. I am so thankful that when we confess our sins, the Lord is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and purify us from ALL unrighteousness. I am so thankful for his love. I took a short walk on the beach one night, and after I got back I wrote this song. It still needs a ton of work, but here is the very rough draft:
I looked at the ocean, the pale moonlight
Reflecting against foam and waves
In vast open spaces, lay great mysteries
From times long before I became
You listened as I talked and chattered aloud
Not another soul there made a sound
I asked you to help me somehow make you proud
Your breeze swayed gently still
I told you my secrets, I told you my shame
Then my words ended.
Your chorus silenced me.
"I love you as big as the ocean.
I love you bigger still
I love you much more than the number of stars
I love you further still.
My love goes further still"